Afraid of missing out? Not at all
I almost missed out on having FOMO, which is the “Fear Of Missing Out.”
It took me years to figure out what FOMO meant even though I’d seen it used on Facebook and other social media, initially by the very young and then, increasingly, by people old enough to have had their gallbladders removed and their knees replaced.
As I get older, I’m happier to skip over things, especially new things I don’t understand the instant I encounter them. I’ll confess: I’ve always skipped over Russian names in Tolstoy and the sciencey parts of science fiction. But now I’m skipping over rather ordinary tasks, such as learning the names of friends’ grandchildren. I skip entire updates on my Mac And I skip the salad course unless cheddar, feta or gorgonzola are involved, which could be what people’s grandchildren will be named in the round coming up next year for all I know.
When I finally understood that FOMO meant Fear Of Missing Out, it didn’t actually surprise me. I just didn’t know that there was a four letter expression for it. Most of us have always had a fear of remaining on the sidelines when others are called up to participate, or sitting in the audience when others are called to audition, or being left alone with the potato chips once the band starts to play.
It gets easier as you get older, but it doesn’t disappear. A friend who is a few years older than I am just told me about feeling bad because he can’t find somebody with whom to play pickleball.
I thought he was talking metaphorically, but it turns out there is a racket game called pickleball. I’d missed out on this, too. Pickleball is now, apparently, quite a popular (albeit minor) sport, especially in planned age restricted villages — otherwise known as retirement communities — and in some junior high gym classes. It’s a cross between badminton, tennis and table tennis.
Until two weeks ago, I had been fully confident that pickles had nothing to do with sports. I was convinced that they were the green bits I picked off my hamburger and gave to my husband in a silent ritual of marital intimacy that has remained unremarked since the first time I asked Michael during our early courtship, “Do you want these?” whereupon he smiled and slipped them into his bun.
Having thoughtfully considered whether I suffer from a fear of missing out, I’ve decided what I suffer from is a Fear Of Being Included (FOBI). You could say I have a FOBI-a if you like to say that kind of thing, which I hope you don’t.
For example, I don’t want to be asked to volunteer for anything anymore. Being asked to volunteer is a contradiction in terms, anyhow: If somebody entreats, bullies or blackmails you into volunteering, it’s not as if you’re actually choosing freely to donate.
As for other people’s parties, I have less FOMO as every year goes by. I no longer wish to be included on every guest list, although I am increasingly grateful to be in the company of true friends. As I’ve grown older, I look less for the spotlight and search more for illumination. If I missed out on something today, either it won’t matter tomorrow or it’ll still be there tomorrow. Or else I’ll skip it. That’ll be fine, too.