NEW YORK (AP) _ Fiona Apple has no apologies.

The brash 20-year-old singer's impromptu slam of the recording industry's image-making machinery during her acceptance speech at the MTV Video Music Awards raised more than a few eyebrows, but she couldn't care less.

``I just had something on my mind and I just said it,'' Apple says in the Jan. 22 Rolling Stone magazine. ``And that's really the foreshadowing of my entire career and my entire life. When I have something to say, I'll say it.''

At the September awards ceremony, Apple was named best new artist, an honor she thought would go to Hanson. Surprised when she was named, the edgy singer-songwriter has said the award made her feel like ``a sellout.''

Completely unprepared at the podium, she said to her fans, in part: ``You shouldn't model your life about what you think that we think is cool and what we're wearing and what we're saying, and everything. Go with yourself.''

Critics have called Apple ungrateful, but she says absolute honesty is essential for her emotional survival. A pre-teen rape victim who takes medication for depression, Apple says the sexual assault remains the defining event of her life.

``It's funny, because I don't think I maybe would be here,'' Apple says when asked where she'd be if the rape hadn't happened. ``But then again, I don't think I would need to be here.''

What?

``I want everyone to understand me,'' Apple continues. ``I want to be friends with everybody. I want everybody to know how I feel, and I want them to respect it and to think that it's OK. And that's why I'm sitting here ... I think it was my desperation that drove me to have the will to do it.''