Quotes Monday from the Oklahoma City bombing trial of Timothy McVeigh:

``I'm torn, confused. There is a part of me that still remembers him from a little kid. And then there's a part that sees what everybody else sees on TV and gets angry. And I can't put the two together.'' _ Richard Drzyzga, referring to McVeigh, his longtime neighbor.

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``I just wished him well and told him how hard it was. He turned around and told me, `Mrs. D., I'm coming home in a body bag.' I cried and said, `No, you're not.' Tears welled up in his eyes. He hugged me and he walked away very slowly.'' _ Lynn Drzyzga, recalling a conversation with McVeigh as he left for the Gulf War.

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``He was a soldier's soldier.'' _ Howard Thompson, a former Army buddy of McVeigh.

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``He was it, the man, the top dog of the company. ... I just assumed he would go and do great things.'' _ Bruce Williams, a former Army buddy, referring to McVeigh.

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``He took sight on someone, pulled the trigger, and killed them. ... he wasn't bragging about it. In fact, I think his emotion at that point was, you know, it was something that he had to do, but he didn't feel good about doing it.'' _ Drzyzga, recalling that McVeigh described the Gulf War to him.

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``He seemed maybe just a little bit disillusioned.'' _ Childhood friend Vicki Hodge, on McVeigh's demeanor when he left the Army in late 1991 after failing to qualify for the elite Special Forces.